So I’ve been feeling really salty lately.
Sometimes stuff happens in life and you just feel like you got a raw deal. I haven’t had anything major happen, just a culmination of a lot of small things over many months that have frustrated and worn on me. Small things can add up and make you feel like you have one big mess on your hands.
After whining for weeks to friends, family and the hubby I started to reach a point where I realized the whining wasn’t really helping me or them. One of my friends who has been a great listener put it very straight to me recently: “You are not dead or dying or sick. You are not living on the street. You are healthy, happy and loved. Spring is coming and there are a lot of good things in your life.”
She was right. One of my goals for this year is to refresh others and frankly I’ve been doing really poorly at this. I easily become discouraged when I log onto social media and hear everyone talk about how great their lives are. Their spouse is perfect. They are wildy passionate about their jobs. They run marathons and never get injured.
Whatever the case, it’s easy for me to find a reason to become jealous or bitter. It’s also easy to forget that people can put on a facade and act like their life is perfect, when really it’s not. And when they are speaking the truth, I should have an open heart and encourage them. But I haven’t been doing so.
This needs to stop.
I am blessed in many ways, as my friend reminded me. Even though they are not all nearby, I have a circle of loving family and friends. I have a husband who puts up with my drama and still loves me. I have a church family and faith to sustain me.
As I drove home yesterday I thought about how happy I am to be in Ohio right now, how clear the sky was and how beautiful Lake Erie is. I realized it’s a blessing in itself to know that there is no place I would rather be right now. I thought about my plans for a spring garden and the enjoyment I will receive from working the land. I thought about eating healthier and taking care of my body.
I thought about the positives in my life. I decided to consciously put forth an effort to stop breeding negativity, remove things from my life that do not serve me and surround myself with positive influences and people who make me a better person. I thought about how I can do better and will do better.