I had hoped to end my last two weeks of half-marathon training with a bang.
Instead this training cycle sounds like the same disaster it’s been for the last four months: skipped workouts, sub-par runs and a lack of energy and motivation.
I’m still very much excited to run the Rite Aid Cleveland Half-Marathon next Sunday, don’t get me wrong. It’s just been a slow realization, for me that a PR is unlikely and trying to overcome my (unreasonable) fears of coming in last place. Maybe this is a “slower” runner fear, but I’m always sizing up the competition. I know I won’t come out on top, but heaven forbid, not the bottom!
A view from the start (source)
I was traveling all last week for business and didn’t hit many of my workouts. My diet and sleep patterns were also off-kilter. I came back Saturday and set out for my last long run of this training cycle (10 miles) and I only made it about 4 miles. Pathetic.
I really beat myself up over it. My energy levels were low and my mental game was not there. I also had some tightness in my chest and have been dealing with allergy problems. The weather was beautiful, so for once, I couldn’t blame Mother Nature.
After wallowing in my sorrows for about a day, I realized this is not the end of the world. I’m still sticking to my plan of running and enjoying the race. This race will be different than my training runs. No matter how much I try to recreate the energy and excitement of a half-marathon during a training run — I can’t.
So I go into this week hoping to crank out some shorter runs and some strength-training (much needed). I also have rest days set for Friday and Saturday. Considering my recent spell, those should be easy! I also am reminding myself that before my last half-marathon I got sick and didn’t run for 10 days straight, missing out on the last few training runs. I was terrified of how I would do. I ended up finishing with a PR and a sense of achievement.
In the end, I’m pretty tough once I’m on the race course. I stick it out. And I will again.
Let’s see what Cleveland will bring on Sunday.
*Read my 2012 Rite Aid Cleveland Marathon Blogger disclosure here.